What do you really love? What causes that feeling in your stomach when you can’t really explain why you love something so much? Maybe you love Chopin’s nocturnes or perhaps Sibelius’ tone poems. Or you might love the feeling you get when a group sits down together or the first time a commissioned work comes off the page with real musicians.
That feeling is special and tells us a lot about ourselves--and provides a reason to keep going. If you find that you never truly love any aspect of music or working with others, then you should explore why that is. Are you too afraid to feel something or should you do something else with your life? The deepest part of yourself is trying to communicate with you through music. You should listen.