I recently have restarted my elementary studies of the piano. Although I passed piano “proficiency” in college (over 10 years ago!), I’ve never been satisfied with my piano abilities. There’s something greatly rewarding about playing an instrument that I’ve only played in my adulthood. Perhaps, it’s because I can play without expectations of myself or the need to play well enough to impress someone. I can play for me--and for the simple enjoyment of the challenge and the music. It reminds me that one ultimately "plays" music not "works" music.
As I have worked out of one of the very basic piano books, I have worked to play the solos without looking at the keyboard. After a bit of practice, I amaze myself at how my fingers will make certain (very simple) jumps without my rational brain really knowing where those particular notes are. In fact, aside from when I’m actively practicing, too much control causes me to miss them. I’m learning I must trust myself. I think this applies to a lot of other areas of my life, too. Once you do the initial work or make the initial decisions, you have to trust yourself that you will do what is best. Mistakes can be corrected, apologies made. But amazing action requires trust in oneself.